Surreal Life

Yesterday I went to the doctor, not knowing exactly what to expect, and ended up hearing my baby's heartbeat and getting an ultrasound. It was incredible. I thought that I would document on here what it was like and how I felt so that I don't forget because, honestly, this is as close to a journal as I get. Up until yesterday it has been really hard for me to wrap my mind around the fact that I am actually having a baby. I mean, sometimes I get nauseous and I'm always tired, but even then it's easy for me to forget that I am actually pregnant and taking care of another human being inside me. Totally weird. So, when I heard the little heartbeat yesterday I was completely overwhelmed. There's really a baby in there! And then, I got to actually see my little tyke on the ultrasound. Nothing really prepares you for that moment when you first see your little guy and know that it's yours, that it's inside you growing, and that you really are having a baby! haha. It was... surreal. Now, I find myself touching my stomach more and just really loving my little lime sized baby. I couldn't believe how overwhelming the feeling of love was when I actually saw our baby on the screen. I can't imagine how much more powerful that feeling will be when we see our kid for the first time in the delivery room. I love our little baby and I wish more than anything in the world that Dan could have been there to share that moment with me. Vet School is a total life ruiner. He was so sad when he found out he wasn't going to be able to be there for the ultrasound, and I honestly don't know what to do to make him feel better. I would've given anything for him to be able to come, but it just isn't possible. So sad. How do I make up for that? How do I cheer him up?

So, our baby is healthy and the pregnancy seems to be going fine, although they did adjust my due date because of the size of the baby. I'm now due in April instead of March. Oh well. Both good months.