“True love is not so much a matter of romance as it is a matter of anxious concern for the well being of one’s companion”
-President Hinckley

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Surreal Life

Yesterday I went to the doctor, not knowing exactly what to expect, and ended up hearing my baby's heartbeat and getting an ultrasound. It was incredible. I thought that I would document on here what it was like and how I felt so that I don't forget because, honestly, this is as close to a journal as I get. Up until yesterday it has been really hard for me to wrap my mind around the fact that I am actually having a baby. I mean, sometimes I get nauseous and I'm always tired, but even then it's easy for me to forget that I am actually pregnant and taking care of another human being inside me. Totally weird. So, when I heard the little heartbeat yesterday I was completely overwhelmed. There's really a baby in there! And then, I got to actually see my little tyke on the ultrasound. Nothing really prepares you for that moment when you first see your little guy and know that it's yours, that it's inside you growing, and that you really are having a baby! haha. It was... surreal. Now, I find myself touching my stomach more and just really loving my little lime sized baby. I couldn't believe how overwhelming the feeling of love was when I actually saw our baby on the screen. I can't imagine how much more powerful that feeling will be when we see our kid for the first time in the delivery room. I love our little baby and I wish more than anything in the world that Dan could have been there to share that moment with me. Vet School is a total life ruiner. He was so sad when he found out he wasn't going to be able to be there for the ultrasound, and I honestly don't know what to do to make him feel better. I would've given anything for him to be able to come, but it just isn't possible. So sad. How do I make up for that? How do I cheer him up?

So, our baby is healthy and the pregnancy seems to be going fine, although they did adjust my due date because of the size of the baby. I'm now due in April instead of March. Oh well. Both good months.


  1. So exciting! Isn't that the BEST feeling ever! It helps to make the pregnancy so much more real. I'm so happy for you!

  2. Aww! It's the best feeling in the world huh? It's amazing and it keeps getting better! :D

  3. Look at you go with your motherly instincts!!!!

  4. fun fun fun. Just make sure that the big ultrasound around 18-22 weeks is when he can come cause that one is really awesome and you can see the baby a lot more. Can't wait! My sister was also due in March and got pushed back to April 9th cause of the size of her baby, weird!
    Can't wait till Thanksgiving to see you guys, miss you!


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