So, I missed a few days already. Oops. I'll try to do better.
Today was a pretty ordinary and uneventful day. Evelyn and I played and giggled the day away and then I made dinner and we waited for Dan to come home. Pretty exciting. And then it came time to put evie to bed for the night, and she decided she was over this whole sleeping thing, and fussed and cried for an hour. During that hour I just kept thinking, "do I really want another kid?". As of this moment, I'm not totally sure about my answer to that, but since this is a challenge to recognize the miracles/blessings in my life, I will think of something to be thankful for out of this experience. I guess I am thankful for trials. I know that sounds ridiculous, but I am. Without trials we would never get any stronger and would just stay the same, and maybe even digress. I'm thankful that during times of great adversity, we can feel our heavenly father's love and support for us, if we want it. The couple months after evie was born were the hardest of my life, and I am thankful for that trial now because it puts nights like tonight into perspective, and I know without a doubt that I can handle it, because she's been worse. So, I guess today I feel blessed that heavenly father still feels the need to challenge me so that I can constantly be improving. How is that for silver lining?
Sorry she wouldn't sleep! It DOES get better. And Reilly was a terrible sleeper until a month or two before Jaina was born. You can bet I was stressing that one, but we were blessed. So don't be so scared of another one. Katy is teething PLUS I think she caught a cold, so we were up for a bit in the night with a fever and nasty nose. And that's why I didn't call you yesterday (and won't today...) Just so you know. :)
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